Not a medic, so consult with your doctor, but I quit 15 years ago using cytisinicline.
I was motivated as well but it leveled the playing field - still had to do the work but the work was doable. Take care and fight for your health, it's worth it!
And it will only worsen with impeded access to material for cultivation. The failures in education are of paramount importance and the proper orientation from people capable of saying "no access to culture, for your protection" is dubious as an understatement.
As someone that has had that experience when Timex 2068 was considered modern, and all that Nintendo did were Game&Watch handhelds, I am fine with it, there are other activities to keep one busy.
In maths, you go through proofs every step of the way. Same in physics, you start by performing even the most basic experiments, and build your way up.
I was motivated as well but it leveled the playing field - still had to do the work but the work was doable. Take care and fight for your health, it's worth it!
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